alone on the bottom i stood for years
caught up in my own chokehold, holding back the tears
dreams get shattered and efforts subside
feels like im wasting time by just being alive
i've been tormenting myself
with thoughts of how life could have been
a better place is out there but i'm still lost within
still searching for excuses for how i choose to live
the pain i've put myself through no way i can forgive
i'm staring myself blind at my flaws and mistakes
spending my whole life trying to escape
can't seem to find a way to cope
and as i look around my life feels like a joke
all the better days are too far gone
and my fate is something that i know i can't outrun
but maybe i just care too much
i should have closed my eyes as i saw my dreams get crushed